Well, most of you know that I found out that I am pregnant again. I am 2 1/2 months now. And each day is still as nerve racking as the one before. It doesn't get any easier coming back from the tragic loss of a baby. Sometimes I feel guilty because it's hard to be as excited about this baby knowing there is still risk. Deep down inside I know that my life and my baby's life is all in the will of God, but sometimes that isn't as comforting as I know it should be. So if you happen to remember, prayers are always much appreciated. For comfort and peace and less anxiety.
As far as how I've been feeling...not so great! I have mostly night sickness that begins around 4pm and tends to last until I go to bed which these days has been around 7:30. I don't really throw up, just dry heave but I am extremely nauseous. The Dr. has given me some anti-nausea medication and if I take that then I am good for a few hours, but the second that wears off, it's back. Recently I have started to get some pretty knarly headaches, and today actually broke down and took an excedrin migraine pill, because tylenol just wasn't working...I had the headache for 2 1/2 days...not fun!
Michial still doesn't know yet, and we would like to try and wait until the baby starts to move. I am trying to wait as long as possible to protect his heart in the case that something does happen.
I have a lot of New Year's resolutions this year. One of which is NOT to necessarily loose weight (that will come the end of July!) although as soon as Michial goes back to school from break, I would like to go walking each day. My prayer for this year is for those who have lost their jobs to find prosperous new ones, to spend more "quality" time with Michial, to do my best to keep my home organized and a place full of love and peace, and to spend more time each day with God. And one more...to potty train my dog!
I will try and keep this up to date more often...not sure if anyone even reads it...but I think it will be a good journal for me to keep track of my thoughts.